I am home.
The internet and computer access was a little spotty where I was and I didn't want my family to know about my blog, so I couldn't write. Besides the fact that I was busy watching a toddler and a newborn, and cooking and cleaning a bit to help my sister, so that didn't give me too much free time. But I am home now, and I appreciated all of your comments and words of encouragement.
I realized I can do this. Someday I will be a great mother. I was able to juggle nap times, feedings, diaper changes (without gloves--yikes), mild meltdowns, play time, cooking and cleaning. Granted I wasn't as sleep deprived or hormonal as I might be if I had been the one who gave birth, and I wasn't doing it alone, but I realized that I when that day comes, I just might be a pretty good mom.
And that was something to smile and cheer about.