Monday, September 13, 2010

Baby Steps

We met up again with the birth parents this weekend.  We went out to dinner and had a nice time chatting and getting to know one another a bit more.  They are really great people.  I felt good about how everything was going.  I felt at peace, excited, and joyful.

I felt those same feelings this morning on my run.

Then I started to get nervous.  Nervous that things wouldn't work out.  Nervous that our meeting hadn't gone as well as I thought.  I talked with my hubby a bit and that helped.  He reminded me, "It's out of our hands."  At this point there is nothing we can do.  If things don't work out, then they don't work out.  While I realize that, that is one of the reasons it is scary and I feel nervous.  I want to be in control.  I want to make sure everything works out.  Aaaaah.   Deep breath.

I tried to keep myself busy by cleaning and going to the grocery store.  My sister called and it was nice to be able to talk to her a bit.  Then my friend told me she was home and I could come pick up a crib and her rocking chair.  So I went and picked that up.  And now I am feeling a bit better.  I am about to head out to go to my sister in law's house to pick up some more baby stuff--car seat, pack n play, etc.

I have been so amazed at the outpouring of love and baby stuff from people when we tell them we are adopting.  I am so grateful to everyone for their help.  Our baby is going to be so loved and we will be able to tell him about everyone who was so excited about his arrival and how they helped us stuff his room full of the things we needed to take care of him.

I can do this.  It is just a few more weeks until I will be holding my little bundle of joy.

11 comments:

  1. Enjoy EVERY SECOND of this. It is all out of your hands, but your feelings aren't. One of the hardest things for me was telling people we had been chosen because their response was always "What if she changes her mind?" I felt like they didn't want me to be happy about it. I waited YEARS for a chance to be a mom, why would they try and take my happiness from me. Don't hold back any joy, you deserve every once of happiness you can get from being chosen and meeting the birth parents.

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  2. Can't wait to see pictures of you holding your little bundle of joy! So very excited for you- I bet you cannot wait to become a mommy!

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  3. Ah the control thing, I completely get it! That has been one of the hardest things for me throughout this whole journey. I always like to think I'm in control, but have been reminded often this year that I'm really not when it comes to a lot of this stuff. As your husband said, you've both done everything you can to make this a success now it is out of your hands. I'm glad things went well this weekend with the family & I pray it all works out and soon you will be cherishing every minute with your precious son! So excited for you guys!!!

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  4. Oh wow just catching up with all your news - and what news! So so happy for you. How amazing this all is - I think your feelings of anxiety are totally normal, you're going to be a mom so so soon! Looking forward to hearing all about it, not least cos I am seriously considering adoption too. Big hugs.

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  5. yes, you *can* do this! can't wait to see you with your baby!

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  6. Wow. I guess October is fast approaching. Which means that a baby boy is soon coming to be in your loving arms. Yet how reasonable that you would have fears. Until the papers are signed, I think you will be afraid and that is ok. Like your husband said, it's out of your hands now. All you can do is trust that you will be parents. And most likely in October.

    My thoughts are with your everyday.

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  7. That is so great for you to have that kind of support! You are very blessed! I really hope that the birth parents are confident in how wonderful you and your husband are!

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  8. Hi! Thanks for stopping by my blog. I hope the next few weeks go by quickly and you are holding your baby in no time! Birth parents are so special, I'm so happy that you get to hang out with them!

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  9. Wow, October is soon and your long wait could finally be over! Not having control over what happens is so scary, though. Of course none of us really has much control over what happens to us, adopting or not! Hope that in a few weeks you'll be rejoicing without any reservation.

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  10. WOW! I must have missed a post with the arrival of your baby -SO SOON! I am elated for you. Congratulations.

    Have fun nesting!

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  11. It's one of the most frustrating things about IF journey...that it's mostly out of our control...but anyway, hope everything works out well for the both of you. :-D WHOOOOPPEEE!!!

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