Tuesday, October 26, 2010

October

Of all the months of the year, for me, this one seems to always revolve around infertility and children.   I spent many an October crossing my fingers and holding onto hope only to find myself in tears wondering when the hole and ache in my heart would heal.  So, the fact that my hubby and I were hoping to adopt our child in October filled me with some fear and trepidation.

October is a month filled with family fun with the onset of fall and Halloween.  I have always loved seeing kids trick or treating and filled with excitement as they run around in their costumes.  I have fond memories myself of trick or treating and enjoying the smell of candles burning in jack-o-lanterns.

But with every IVF treatment ending in disaster in October, I came to hate and dread this lovely month.  Holidays are so much more fun when kids are involved.  They create the magic and excitement that comes with the holidays.

With a child in our home, October has become a happy and exciting time of year again.  We visited the pumpkin patch as a family and I reveled in the peace and happiness I felt to have a child to call my own.

For many of you, you are still waiting for the laughter of a child or even more children to come to your home.  And my heart aches for you and I hope it happens soon.

The irony was not lost on my husband and me when on our stressful adoption placement day as we were waiting for time to slowly tick by until papers would be signed that Tom Petty's song, "The waiting is the hardest part" came on.  We nervously laughed, then sighed, moaned, and groaned.  My husband said, "no kidding".  For all of those still waiting, I am thinking of you and I know how hard it is.

14 comments:

  1. Happy October indeed! :) I love his skeleton outfit!

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  2. You are amazing, look at your glow! I'm so very happy for you and so much appreciate the fact that you are still concerned about others still waiting. Much love, Fran

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  3. awww, i love this post! so beautiful...and i am SO glad you are having a wonderful october!

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  4. After our last failed IVF, I stopped celebrating all holidays. Didn't put up a Christmas tree, didn't buy candy to pass out, didn't dare look out my window on Easter or even think about going to church on Mother's day. I just couldn't bear looking at a xmas tree with only 3 or 4 gifts under it (from me to hubby, etc). You're right, most holidays are just meant for kiddos.
    The very best day for me (holiday wise) was getting to fill underneath the tree with AJ's gifts. Oh happy day!! Dressing him up for his 1st Halloween was precious. But when I finally got to stand up with all the other Mothers at church on Mother's day,I cried like a baby. I was(am)finally a mommy! He just turned 4 and sometimes I still can't believe that he is really mine! Enjoy every single minute! They literally grow up way tooooo fast!

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  5. What a wonderful, joyful post. Thank you so much for this - even though I am still waiting, seeing a post as joyful as this really keeps the hope reserves filled. Enjoy your son's first Halloween!

    Happy ICLW & Happy October!
    ~Keiko, Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed (ICLW #142)

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  6. That is a fabulous photograph, he is just gorgeous. Happy October to you and I hope you have many more to come:) Jen ICLW 85

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  7. What a beautiful, hope filled post. So happy for you and it's so kind of you to remember all of us in waiting. Love to you my friend!

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  8. Here from ICLW, and I have to say what a beautiful family you have! I am so glad that you have a good October to enjoy this year!!

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  9. Love seeing the family picture. You are right, holidays are so fun with children. It gets better and better! -Eliza

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  10. Happy ICLW..great photo! Halloween is my favorite holiday. :)

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  11. I love your beautiful post, dear woman. October not only brings pain, but it brings healing. It's amazing that this month will now feel like a magical time again. I'm so thankful that this great joy has been bestowed upon you.
    You are RADIANT in all of your pictures. Motherhood suits you very well.
    Thank you for thinking of us still in waiting, and holding hope for us.
    Hugs to you, dear friend.

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  12. You can just feel the joy coming through these photos, congratultions!

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  13. Yea for skeleton babies. I am going to have 3 skeleton babies for Halloween at Asher's request. What a dolly of a darling boy you have. I am SO happy, SO, SO happy for you and your man!

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  14. Enjoy Halloween with your sweet, sweet baby boy! This has been an amazing month.

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